One month has already passed in my last year of law school and I'm dreading my return to Bay St. Though I've gotten better at being a corporate animal - I'm going to terribly miss the 5 am nights of talking about everything and nothing - and feeling like all that we're saying matters somehow.

Most of all, I'm going to miss the people and the context in which I got to know them. I've met some of the smartest, funniest, and kindest people in my life at law school. I can't and don't interact with people at work in the same way - law firms by their very nature are mercenary and I would be sentimental and foolish to think otherwise. Law school is a different environment. Students are competing with themselves more than each other. Of course there's the obligatory "I'll show you mine if you show me yours" - we're law students - but it was more intellectual, fun, and open than I ever expected.

I intend to grab hold of this year because I feel like I've found my place at this point in time. Once I graduate, I'll be searching all over again and I'm okay with that. Feeling like I've found home is something I haven't felt in a long time.

My favourite comment from a fellow student:

well harvey, who knew, i thought you were a shallow business type
that would potentially irritate me
as it turns out, you have a heart full of gold and laughter
: P

I think I've learned that in the end, I'd rather be known as the last part of her comment to the people I care about even if I fail miserably as a "shallow business type." I've learned that I can live with failure in certain parts of my life and not in others. Priorities people :). Though it did cost me at least $80K, 3 years, and countless Harvard and Yale LLMs to figure this out. Maybe I should have just read more fucking Chicken Soup for the Soul.

All in the name of love
Just to see that love locked in chains and the family came
over the house to take back, everything that they claimed
Or even the worst pain is the distress
Learnin you're the mistress only after that love gets slain
And the anger and the sorrow mixed up leads to mistrust
Now it gets tough to ever love a-gain
But the allure of the game, keeps callin your name

- Jay-Z

“Fareed is one of those people who believe that specialization is for insects,” says Frum. “You need to be able to talk about what should be done in Baghdad while quoting Swinburne over duck that you’ve cooked yourself.”

- NYMag

Despite it's purported financial benefits, I never was much of a fan of specialization.